A conversation about ambition and passion with one friend got me thinking. So I asked - what are your ambitions? It was following an exchange on how my friend said he thought he'd never be able to be like Bill Gates and Kelvin Hart (while quite extreme examples, both reflect the epitome of a passion-driven, vision-led life), because he just does not have such passions or energy. And so I asked him his ambitions, and he said - to own 3 property.
I thought really long after that... because when he asked me what my ambitions are, my honest answer is that I don't know. Am I weird in this? At one point in time, I wanted to represent Singapore to play basketball. At another point in time, I wanted to lead the girls team I coached to become the East Zone champions, and then to bring home the national glory. Yet another time, I thought I wanted to be a vet.
I was taken aback at how calmly my friend reflected the 3-property ambition, and to me, it's a good one too - he wanted to do is so he can have a leave-behind for his family. And it's not about chasing materials and wealth; it's actually something he really hopes to work towards.
So these last few days, I asked myself what I am really passionate about and excited over, and I can pin it to a few things: Language and Writing; Animals, Wellness and Fitness, Interior Design, People and Psychology. And - are these meant to be hobbies, or should they be pursued as passions and my career, my life? I do not know, and it's not even because I am not excited about the work I do.
Maybe this "Lockdown", "Curfew", "Circuit Breaker", "Disinfection Programme" or "whatever-you-call-it" is causing more introspective thinking, and just now, for a moment, when I see the supermarket and costa cafe in pitch darkness, I got that tad more melancholic.
I thought very much too about the concept of "value" - how can we even measure the amount of value one can bring to the table? Is one profession or one work role less of a value? (As is the case in different parliaments where suddenly, a lot is spoken about the unsung heroes - the nurses, the caregivers, the SCN workers, etc). I think everyone has a place to play in this ecosystem. Certainly the heroes in covid, but also, all others, e.g. the CEOs, the business leaders, the government etc. But this ascribing of value - this bit - how does one consider equity? Can that even be done? If not, then how does the individual value his or her own profession, or the role and contribution to an organisation, the work team?
Maybe these few nights, I just "talk to myself" more.
And still once again, I am grateful to the church family I have. The discussions and check ins, the sharing over the powerful works of the cross. These continue to sustain me so much. :)
I must say, despite my own befuddled musings, I am still pretty sane.
The highlight of these last few days was the awesome and majestic white horse sighting in Singapore. I was so so so enthralled. The sight was just too beautiful to behold, and quite funny too. It cracked me up because it is just unbelievable. The muscular and strong horse made its way thru' a petrol kiosk too. And, I was so very tickled by the shrill squeal of the lady in the video, and when she said they must contact SPCA.
[Source: StraitsTimes]
And if I could, I'd add that I'd love to be a horse trainer or equestrian too. :)) A childhood dream.
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