Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Late Night Thankfulness

The folks are downstairs - still continuing their fellowship, and it was such a good time of eating with my surrogate family here.

The day started with a great thunderstorm, super nice to sleep in and to chill. A public holiday right smack in the middle of a week is a great respite for many of us Singaporeans. And what best thing to do than to spend it with family and friends, and nature?

Distance does not separate. Instead, it bridges. I find that with family and friends, we are all more deliberate about spending quality time together. I visited my mum twice in the last 3 days. She has not been feeling well - bouts of giddiness. And yet, I could see that she is mentally and emotionally alert. Very thankful to the neighbours and the aunties who would reach out to her, help her go about her daily life.
So obviously, I felt a lot. It's like... it's come one cycle. I tucked her into bed 2 nights ago, and told her to have faith in God, that her prayers must centre around knowing that God has given her good health, good life on the cross, and knowing that God will always take care of her and meet her needs. It is surreal. I remember she tucking me into bed when I fell ill. I remember how when I did Lasik, she was with me and would plaster the plastic cover over my eyes. And I am now doing it for her.


Today, after breakfast with Zhihui and Ranie, they went with me to visit my mum.
In the midst of some lighter rain, I felt so blessed to know there are friends whom I can count on.

And I went for a longer run than usual. This time, I wanted to run until my feet and body are on fire. I wanted to get into the zone where it is just the pounding and me, and nature surrounding me. So I did the board-walk, and then went into the trails and headed towards the tree top. It was good. I sweated buckets, and ended my routine at the usual quiet corner. The evening was very beautiful.

夕阳无限好,只是近黄昏。

Amidst all, I managed to do some work, managed to read some articles, managed to catch up on some news. Every morning, I tell myself that I would wake up just that 30 minutes earlier (most times fail). Every day, I think about how I can become more effective and productive.

And I can still hear the folks chatting away downstairs. Am most blessed by the love of Daphne and Lips. Tonight, I had dinner with their family, and with Paullyn and Martin. We continued the conversation on John 6 - 5 loaves and 2 fishes, and I, for the first time after a long while, tried Chocalate and Hazelnut Baileys. To my surprise, I actually like it! I used to dislike the milky taste. How we would change over time indeed.

Psalms 133:1-3 - Behold, how good and how pleasant it is, for brethren to dwell together in unity! It is like the precious oil upon the head, running down on the beard, The beard of Aaron, Running down on the edge of his garments. It is like the dew of Hermon, descending upon the mountains of Zion; For there the Lord commanded the blessing - life forevermore.

It's started to rain again.
Love the feel, sound and smell of rain. It has that cosy, snuggish feeling (indoors, that is).
Truly thankful tonight. 

Sunday, August 19, 2018

悲しいときも、痛いときも、苦しいときも、泣いたときも、悩んでいるときも
嬉しいときも、幸せときも、勝利ときも、笑ったときも、冷静ときも
いつもローマ人への手紙8:28をしんじる。

“私たちは;神を愛し神の計画のうちを歩んているひとのためには、その身に起こることはすべて、神が益としてくださることを知っているのです。”

I realised, that my brain tends to switch amongst the various languages some times, and it goes into the Japanese mode when I feel a lot of emotions. 

This Sunday evening, having stared at LinkedIn data, and before going for my run, I thought I would pen my thoughts, specifically just in knowing that God is still the God of Hope.
It's been 8 months into 2018, 4th trip back to SG, many dinners, gatherings, coffees, meet-ups since I came back, and all sorts of emotions. 
The whole weekend, I felt happy and tired at the same time, blessed and knowing God has been good to me not because of what I have done (right or wrong) but because His blood was shed for me, alive and yet defeated, great warmth and yet anger. 
How can we be made to feel such extreme emotions? Yet, life is worth living because it is rich. 

Time moves on regardless how I feel. And in the busy schedules we all have, many times, it is easy to block out certain emotions and thoughts and not deal with them. 
Yesterday's sermon was so good - Rom 8:28 - Hope. 

End of today, I once again feel thankful.
I really want to do my best, live well, glorify Jesus in all that I do. 
All of my life belongs to Jesus - I pray that I can daily rest in Him, daily grow in Him, daily love Him a little more -19 Aug 2018

Song of the moment - 偉大な神
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CKaYwCHBYc (日本語)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBD18rsVJHk (English)

Saturday, August 04, 2018

In a nutshell

And, I'm gonna be back home in less than 24 hours
And I am almost all packed and done
This week went by in a whirl
And I, lost track of time.

But thank God for a wonderful week
Thank God for the nocturnal activities
Thank God for Narni and Zahari
Thank God for Mark 4 sharing

Also for the humid tennis games
That one last min buffet
Was so great to have the yesterday chat
Of embassy, SkillsSG and Sep trip

And for my superb work team
who will zoom and carry me in
For rich and cray cray discussions
For imagining SG100

Finally, I bidded goodbye to Steve
And Viven said he would give me a lift.
And Sean said he would expedite my flight
And then I will be back in SG!


(In chronological order. :p)