Reflective Saturday Morning

I woke up to these lyrics in my mind....

我不是沉默的羔羊
我有话要讲
给我一点酒 让我有勇气
向你吐露我的悲伤

These lyrics were in my latent memory. I remember following every episode of then-epic drama starring Li Nanxing and Zoe Tay. I thought - how strange... how could I even remember these lyrics. And then, these lyrics are so reflective of life. I feel old. But as Steve and I pondered the song, l realised that this is so reflective of life. The being-misunderstood, the many layers of hurt, harsh life experiences - many times they make us who we are today, and even if we want to pour our emotions out, say it to someone, sometimes, we just don't have that courage to. And, a good drink does help. :D

After lunch, I googled the song, and found this on youtube. To be honest, I don't recall the full lyrics or the whole song, but as I listened and understood the lyrics at this point in my life, I think it is a beautiful song. It ended with hope. It ended with how we could still shine and make a difference. Even the video captures darkness-turn-into-light. :))


我不是沉默的羔羊

Then, Daphieee asked me something... that once again sparked off some serious reflection and thinking.



Wow... I agree with the pastor. Being accountable to a mentor / leader is a good thing, but no matter how accountable, whether you are entirely truthful, really want to change, it will ultimately be up to the individual. And... that's why we need God in our lives. It has to be between me and Him ultimately. If struggles and issues can be solved by man, then we don't need Him in our lives anymore. There is no need for that sacrifice, that communion anymore. Just my reflections and pondering... I feel that deep down, we all know that we need some form of outlet. For me, of course there will always be people around me who can hear me out. But my most innermost thoughts, my struggles.... these things are so so very private. While I journal and share my life, some things, are not so easily shared. So I do need a certain outlet, to find that place of solace, to pour out my heart to the One who will understand, who can identify and share my pain. That is my secret place... between God and me.
Hence, I am really thankful for God in my life... when I can't anymore, He can and He is always there to help me. :))

So, yes today started out reflective.
I think about work and about the new journey ahead. I shall write about that one day too.

Today, I did housework, and I am going to listen to service now.
Later, I will do some readings, then play tennis. :))
Thankful for the weekend; thankful for my friends.


Candlelight Service @ CHC