A very very long morning indeed

I decided to put this up. It's my email to Steve this morning. Enjoy.



Dearie, you won't believe what happened to me last night... I slept rather late and dear... i really had a very very scary night....

Heez, my intro sounds like some horror story... but dear, I am glad to say that though I am still frightened, I have definitely become much braver as compared to in the past...

I was doing some reading up on Kyoto and Thailand when out of the corner of my eye, across the floor, I thought I saw some sleek creature scurry across... And then it happened again the second time within 1 second and I looked... To my immense horror, there was nothing... so i thought it could be my imagination.

You know what... If I had seen something, I would have been less shocked.. cos it made me unsure if there was SOMETHING or NOT.

And I took a few steps back and scrutinised my table from a distance... It seemed to have been approaching me.

And then I saw it again.

Man... Cockroach. I wanna die even as I type the word out now.... n it was super huge... n had super long feeeeeeeeleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeers.

Can I spell it like that?

Stunned and shocked.
Paralysed.
Thoughts zoomed in my mind.
What should I do.
Wake my room mate?
Kill it myself?
I definitely couldn't leave it just lying there... or have it roaming carefreely in my presence.

So I woke my room mate and dear... sigh... it was a wrong move... She was super grumpy and she really didn't want to help at all... Sigh... Dear, you know what, in cases like this, I would rather kill the slugroach myself and be fearful and all than to have an unwilling person help me.

She got up nonetheless and used a slipper to tap the wall beside the roach and the roach went in another direction be4 disappearing from view. Then she told me it's fine now. It's gone and I was like... HUH? It's gone? It's just there. Behind the table. And anyway, after some time, she managed to help me get it out of the room... but it was still freaking alive. She didn't want to kill it.

So i decided to go to bed.

And this morning, I woke up at 6.15 am and went to the toilet and upon returning.. guess what I saw again. The stupid slug roach and I am inclined to believe that it's the same one... I just dun wanna think about it being part of a huge family festering in the room.

So I woke her up again. Again, wrong move. This time, she whined and complained and that really struck something in me. I just told her to forget it. I would kill it myself. I told her too, in all her drowsiness and unwillingness, that most of us do fear some stuff in our lives and in mine, it just happened to be this ugly creature. I told her that it's all right. I would manage myself... Dear, i was a little upset...

So i stood staring at the roach for a minute... And prayed for boldness and then guess what... I was still shocked and finally, decided to get another person to help me. My room mate has retreated back to the warm furrows and was totally oblivious... or mebbe pretending to be oblivious?

And this other girl came to my rescue... She had such a different attitude and she was so reassuring and warm and kind... She kept telling me not to worry and brave her simply used her slipper to kill it this time. Dear... it was like dejavu.. you know where the roach chose to escape to? The closet, cabinet where I keep my clothes. Sigh... that was what happened to me in Eusoff Hall years back.

Anyway, she killed it without an ounce of effort and kept reassuring me. She really really made a huge and positive difference in my life and I am so thankful for people like her... Dear, I really appreciate her help and i couldn't help but compare the 2 different attitudes.

I feel that even as i type this, God is speaking to me too... That we can never be too busy, too preoccupied with ourselves that we cannot help others in need. To make a difference, we have to go out of the way to help. I was really touched and I am going to have an even greater attitude towards the people around me now.

Dear... it was such an awful yet awesome experience. I am now much more relaxed, after having breakfast and now, I am seated right at the same table, typing this email. I have gotten braver because the prior me wouldn't have the guts to sit at the same place even after disinfecting or cleaning the place. Now I can.

So the rest is history. I cleaned my area of the room... And there's basically nothing very much to clean or clear since i din bring much luggage with me... but I wiped the desks with mamalemon... wiped the walls, cleaned the cupboards... did some basic cleaning and dear... as I was cleaning, my room mate just muttered something. I thought she was asleep... but she said that she was really tired and she was sorry she couldn't help from the bed and I felt a little upset still and at that point in time, I REALLY REALLY WANTED TO BO-CHUP HER AND NOT RESPOND TO HER. Still, I told her nevermind.. it's fine... And then she said she wouldn't kill the cockroach anyway since it is a living thing... Sigh... Whatever whatever whatever.

But I have decided that despite this, I would still treat her nicely.

And so, I din sleep much the whole night... and now, i have almost finished my story.

It's a triumphant email from me to you dear... I hate slug roaches and I still do. Nothing's gonna change that and I still shudder at the thought of it now... But but but...

In all situations, I can give thanks to my precious Lord and learn something from it. That's the beauty and essence of this email.

Dear... i shall study a bit now and then see what i will do later on... initially intended to go to MacDonalds for a nice morning breakfast but due to all the unforseen circumstances, I knew it would be impossible to enjoy a nice, hearty meal. Still, the Old Town Coffee, Premier Biscuits and Sweet Momo gave me the genki this morning.

Dear, thank you for reading this terrifically exciting email. :)



And that's the end of my story....