Rush Hour

This morning, I woke up and it was OK. These days, I seldom wake up really feeling like waking up and I need to change this. Maybe it’s the cold.. maybe it’s a lack of expectancy for the day… maybe I am procrastinating. Whatever it is, I need to resolve to change that. To decide that I have to get out of bed the instant my alarm goes off and get ready for the day and give thanks to God.

Because of my reluctance to get out of bed, a whole series of other problems arose… I was panicky.. I wondered if I could make it in time for the usual bus.. It’s not that I would be late for school just by lazing in bed for another 10 minutes.. It’s really that there would be too many commuters.. and I really dun like to squeeze with the students at all. Well, that got me kinda kan jiong. And as I walked down the slope for the bus, I saw it coming and ran… n missed it. The next bus came soon after, and usually, even then, I would still be able to catch my usual train on that bus, just that today, there was an unusual no. of passengers, and so many pple at the station that the bus was somewhat delayed.. and as I got down, I could still have made the earlier train… except for the fact that so many pple were teeming out of the station, and walking like snails… n I would have made it if I rushed past everyone… sometimes I really can’t stand the girls talking loudly in their school uniform, not giving a heck to the world around them. If they think it is cool, I certainly dun think so. Well, anyway, I was at the platform when the train doors closed. Hai, what a way to start my day I thought.... and so, there I was at the platform, wondering when my train would arrive, and where exactly I would be if I had got on the earlier train.

Yup, I certainly wasn’t late.. but I just felt so… haiz.. so rushed and so mentally tired..
The disgusting thing was that even as I was in bed, I din really enjoy the extra 10 minutes I had.. I already knew and could see the problems and the unease that would be caused just by being lazy, just because I laid in bed for another 10 minutes. So sick. Tomorrow, tomorrow, I will wake up the instant my alarm goes. Tomorrow, I will. I pray that I will have the strength and resolve to do it. I want to give thanks for a great day ahead and not run around like ants on fire.

Lalala. So, I just had breakfast and coffee. Last night, thank God for a good dinner. I had nabe. It was so delicious! Got the nabe idea from Tom. He was talking about eating nabe.. and nabe is so healthy… lotsa vegetables, and I found some siew mai in my fridge that had been long forgotten and decided to throw it into the soup. Oishi… Next time, I am going to eat more nabe… n it really makes me warm too. The only drawback was the smell of the soup lingering in the kitchen. I sprayed some air freshener but this morning when I woke up, I could still smell the shoyu in the kitchen.

And as an afterthought, Mama will be so proud of me for making such a healthy dinner. I took a picture just for mama to see. Cabbage, bean sprouts, mushroom, carrots, leeks, tomatoes, toufu and siew mai of course. Yay!! Happy happy. Wish I have my camera now to upload the picture.

And tonight, I am gonna meet Nozo, Beth n Co. in Kobe! So wonderful and I am looking forward to it! Ganbatte to myself.