Dare to confront

This evening - I can feel that the weather has become warmer, and while still windy, surely, it is a sign that the season is changing. Outside, I can see the trees swaying quite a fair bit; the last few days have been rainy, cold, windy. 

Yesterday, I was falling fast asleep when S returned home, and said he has something he really needed to tell me. For a brief moment, realization hits - that life truly is not in our own hands. God gives, God takes away. And for that brief moment, it was a moment of sadness. 

These few days have been pretty hectic, and I thought I wanted to say maybe this season, year, is one that could be focused on "dare to confront". Not so much about confronting externalities, but more the innermost, the hardest areas to broach. It was a very interesting last few days, with different experiences, conversations - that led me to this. Time is short; we would not have forever to decide how we want to live.

I found that as I started to pen down some thoughts on Sunday night, I started to feel a little bolder too. It was almost like there was a flurry of thoughts that came. And it was a really good conversation with Steve when he came back afterwards. Maybe too - at the back of my mind, I keep reminding myself that there in that 4th man in the fire. 

Kenji is laying at my feet now - it is a very familiar feeling. I had wanted to hit the gym, or run again today, but it is just too windy outside. 随心所欲 is also a nice feeling. 

This Tues evening, am thankful that my heart is a little stronger today. Thankful that for those things that I can't control, I can be at peace. Thankful for good friends and colleagues. Thankful for that nice, windy walk with Kenji earlier. Thankful that despite the noises, I can still fall asleep and rest. Thankful that the day has wound down as night falls. :)